Just when you think things cant get worse!

Just when you think things cant get worse, for starters just dont think that because it can, it can always get worse, and it has!

My life is shambles again and I just dont know what to do :( I never thought it would be this bad!
Hehe and never think you not good enough, I had a downer yesterday when I thought I werent good enough and then a big burger van came past and on the side it said "only the best is good enough" lol
and that made me feel worse. It was like a kick in the face, why cant we just be ourselfs? isnt that good enough?

If we are worried what people are thinking about us all the time, we are never going to live up to our potential .......

and i'ts true, I'm telling you all this because thats why my life is in shambles right now! Thats all i've done all my life is care what people think, i've pleased everyone else but myself and its not good!

So if you are doing something now just because your worried what people will say, stop it and do what you want.
God loves you and he will be with you, no matter what!

Jump of the fence guys and just go for it!!!

Everyone who reads this, its really time to just go for it! seriously god has spoken to me soo much today and im finally at ease with everything, well until i jump off the fence!
I know alot of people are going to be disapointed in me and think im making the wrong choice, but i really dont think i am! so sorry if you are one of the disapointed people.

Dreams came up again today, and it got me thinking about it even more! Matt(pastor) mentioned to me and claire today that dreams are the things that make our lifes better, and that when you live your dreams your always going to be living bigger than the moment. They are there for a reason, and thats to do something with them, chase after them, fight for them and catch them when you can. I may not yet be living the dream i want yet but i know that when i jump for them ill be caught in gods hands and living the dream through him and for him.

Jeremiah 29 vs 11

Living life to the full??? As if!

Hey bloggers! Hope you've all had a good weekend, as you can prob tell mines not been very good! Living life to the full is what i called my blog when i first started i think it should be called living life to how people want me to!

My friend Tim English preached a couple of weeks ago on worship, and he mentioned that when he was in his twentys all he used to do was live for the weekends. But he realised that your really wishing the other five days of your life away. We're too young to be wishing our life away, and worrying what people think of us!
I personally think its time for us to step out in faith and just do what god wants us to do!

I wish i could just step out right now, do what i think god wants me to do and just go for it!

Bit of decorating

Hehe finally my page is looking decent! At last!!! I've actually done some revision today and i do feel a tiny bit better, but still dont know what i'm doing with my life, and if anyone else has a clue please let me know.

Do you think anyone who had a dream, is living it out???
I would really like to know. You grow up with this dream of being a superstar or a teacher or a carpenter?
does anyone get what they want? or is there people out there who have faught every step to where they are now and are living the dream? If you are, you are inspiring me now as im writing, to believe that we all can do it if you can.
It was Martin Luther King day the monday just gone and he had a dream, and his dream has changed the world we live in today, so it must be true!

Anyone know my dream? wanna come looking for it with me?
Cuz i know for sure im not fighting for it, if anything im running away from it!

My new love revolution cards for the next two weeks are:
Give someone a massive hug and make amends with a family member or friend.

Deuteronomy 31vs6 My baptism verse
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your god goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you"

I know god knows all my actions and i know hes going to be there while i make the wrong and right ones. He will be there for me no matter what!

Back on the fence again guys! Got a week full or revision, and i dont know what im going to do now, If i pass theres not really an excuse to quit is there! I mean i love what i do, but the theory is just insane, and i dont think i can do insane anymore lol im getting old. Had an amazing time last week with god and im going to try and keep up with it.

Im really getting used to these early morning prayers, hehe until about 4pm when im so tired i nap for an hour (if i can) (well most days)! But getting up spending time with god having breakfast can completley change your day, i encourage everyone to do it. ohh and im 17 days into my not drinking coke and not having crisps, how awesome is that? whoop whoop for me!

Went to the pub last night with all my friends, its funny like how something simple as a piece of cobweb falling off the ceiling can be a highlight of someones night, or everyones night? we all laughed so much, and as we passed baby jake around laughing at who could make him laugh? or cry? or just smile!

I enocurage everyone just when they wake up to say five thank you's! whether it be thank you for my job, thank you for the day ahead, or thank you for the family you are waking up with! Just thank the lord for these awesome things we have in our life

A new day

Hey, My life seems to be working out quite well, although i've got a bad cough and cold, i've finally made up my mind about everything and i feel so much better. Anyone who reads i know this is random, but, go on to you tube and watch some videos about god changing their lives, its so inspirational! You may have a few tears but the miracles that happen because of god are just so amazing!
I think today im going to have a good sort out and anything i dont want, im going to give to the charity shop, or bless someone else with it. :) might go and make some cakes now!
I'm starting to change my mind already!

A much better day :)

Had a terrible night which ended in an amazing sleep and a early morning! Getting used to the Early morning common prayer now and im really enjoying. Uni was terribly boring and i couldnt concentrate again! But ive made up my mind about what im going to do, i just have to make plans now!! Looking forward to kerith tonight, we are going to start encouraging each other and its my turn this week, should be interesting!

well unless u post hehe

hehe just realised how dramatic i sound on here! but its nice to talk to someone and let it all out and no one can talk back :)

Things can suprise you!

Just had my essay back, and i passed! How wierd and shocking is that? do you think that could be a sign that this course is right for me? (please i hope not) hehe! But it means now that its going to be harder to get out of it! Everyone will be so proud! The funny thing is my personal tutor said to me, " is this you really writing? have you used someone elses work?" how bad is that? Am i that bad! oh well, what to do now? so many decisions! should i listen to what my hearts saying or should i listen to other people and just be unhappy? anyone????

I'm new at this :)

Hey, anyone whos reading, im totally new at this so i dont have a clue what im doing but oh well! hehe!
I'm just talking to my friend now jackson and when we were in college (he was doing music, i was doing musical theatre) we made a bet that we's both become famous doing what we loved! its sad really how much things change :( are our dreams meant to happen? should we fight all the way or do they always just get left behind????